Three Somber Poems

By Deserie Balbaneda

*Without You*

Long hard days, sleepless nights
Non-stop crying, darkness no light
I force myself out of bed
Sadly wishing I was dead
For a life going on without you
Is something I know I could never do
For these hopeless days I have to live
I know there’s nothing I wouldn’t give
To spend at least one last day with you
But even then I guess I wouldn’t get a clue
That you're better where you are
And soon you won’t be very far
For when I am gone too
I'll be there right beside you

*So I thought*

*You said you loved me, so I thought *
*You told me you cared, so I thought*
*You promised me forever, so I thought *
*Then you broke me, so I thought…*
*Now I know how to love*
*No more "thought"*
*Now I know the way to care*
*No more "thought"*
*Now I know the true meaning of forever*
*I think no more…I know*

Still waiting

Do you love me, do you care
Do you even know I’m there?
I sit alone in the night
Wishing you had made this right
You say I’m something you never finished
Well, then I might as well be diminished
Cause if you cared then you’d be here
Instead of leaving me in fear
Of this world so cold and cruel
Without a father, I feel like a fool
A fool for waiting for you to come,
To be my dad but I guess that was dumb
For we both know that I'll always be paying,
For the choice that you made,
It will just leave me waiting…
So I guess I will be patient until that day
That you will honestly come up to me and say
I do love you, I do care
I will always know that you’re there